"I'm completely disheartened. I don't know what to do with myself."

"My life has been nothing but a failure, and all that's left for me to do is to destroy my paintings before I disappear."

"I'm so tired of these endless struggles. I just want some peace."

"I'm so fed up with these water lilies. I can't stand them anymore."

"I am very much upset. I am working very hard, but I am not satisfied with anything."